>>9424 (OP)I don't want to scare you, but I would like to warn you about something. I got pretty deep into conspiracies and the occult with a friend, he started seeing 444 everywhere, we actually messaged each other for the first time at 4:44am. It was his number, he tapped into some crazy powerful ancient Egyptian raisin and demonstrated pretty real powers, but it's sent him absolutely mad and he's going to be in the psych ward for the rest of his life. I ended up in the hospital too, we were both clearly being gangstalked, to the point where people who spent time with us a lot could observe it as well. If you can overcome all the craziness you can't imagine how much strength you will have, but I'd be super cautious. It absolutely is real, telling people you trust irl will keep you alive, if you start to actually know raisin you shouldn't you will be in danger. You need to do what you can to safeguard yourself. If they push you into a mental breakdown and you end up hospitalised, the fastest way out is to comply and participate, take the meds willingly, agree that you're sick, and then you can secretly wean yourself of the meds. Keep your raisin together, keep picking up the prescription and shut up, let them think you are fully on board and they will leave you alone. They will train everyone around you to become your handler, if you display any thoughts that seem unusual they will have your family cart you away, and they'll benevolent they're doing it for your own good. Repeated admissions will lead to injections, in this case you need to get on aripiprazole, look up negative symptoms for all the other meds until you get put on aripiprazole, then when you're home but some ginko biloba and that will cancel the meds out (personal experience). Then, you really have to keep your raisin together.