>>44137There are no guarantees in life friend. I hope my advice helps but in the end success depends on the person, and sometimes in life following your gut, and doing things your own way works better. You can also do everything correctly, to the best of your ability, and STILL fail. At the end of the day if we can say we did our best then that's what matters.
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>I kinda feel bad because i don't actually miss her at all, i only miss the presence of a woman. I'm only a volcel since I have poor social skills that I am improving, and growing up I preferred self improvement over socialization. But now I am really really really alone. Though in about 4 months I'll go to college so I'll meet someone else.
>In the end I used her because I was alone and she was the only good girl there was in my vicinity. She used me because she was raped a few years ago and saw me as a way to erase her trauma by being with a good guy.
>TMIDon't view people as expendable friend. Even if you don't believe in divine judgement know that people are social creatures, and the digital world is smaller than you think. Perception is the law, and if people perceive you to be a bad person, they will treat you as one. In parts of the fintech world there are some INSANE background checks that look at moral character. I think they are more in depth then security clearance screenings.
More importantly, are you satisfied with that? Can you look yourself in the mirror and say "I am happy i used that woman"? She was hurt once, do you feel that you hurt her again? I am getting guilt vibes from your first post but maybe that's just me? Part of why we warn people away from pre-maritial sex is that we grow attached to people, and we want to protect the ones we are attached to.
Though i do understand why you didn't follow through with that relationship. What you described was a broken girl. Not casca levels of broken but getting there. She has a lot she will have to recover from. When meds are involved, that's a type of crazy. they may be stable now but all it takes is a change in doctor or a weight and then BLAMO you have a problem. When you are sexually active with a woman, there is a chance she can become pregnant. You don't want to bring up a child in a difficult relationship.
As for the future: Keep in mind past success does not guarantee future success. College is NOT high school. If i had a dollar for every time i heard "but i did well in high school" i would be able go buy bitcoins. Your brain is in your head, not in your pants. Don't let your dick guide your life. Go to college for a useful education. Don't go there to party or screw around. There are better places to screw around in for a fraction of the price.
>>44140You look for who you get along with! That's it. Does she like you? do you get along with her parents and siblings? does she get along with your family? The old ladies i have talked to that were in decades long marriages all say the same thing: I get along better with my inlaws then i did with my parents.